Because most folks are pretty much spiritual in some sense of self perception, I'm confident that these lamentations will be well received.
I've noticed how happiness seems solid while joy feels characteristically fluid.
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The above sentences were drafted in Feb '20. I've done the unthinkable in an age of social media distraction and self-promotion. I've looked for every single Exit sign instead of warranting the Entrance door.
Hello, September 2021 readers - I owe you an apology. I'm sorry for letting you down. When I first began this blog I was finally in a decent day time job and adjusting to life without my Mom in it. Knowing that I wanted a broader view of the world and completing paperwork for a passport in early March of 2020, my focus was on bringing passion, true purpose and career into one thing: Connection.
Unfortunately, the globe became used to new phrases like social distancing, pandemic and essential worker. Where I was working at the time was considered by society as an essential place of business - and business was good.
Almost too good.
With increased hours, repeated temperature checks and little to no improvement as far as management or worker compassion was concerned, beating the keyboard became less important.
In August of 2020, my grandpa passed away. He was a stern and proud man. My sister and I were tasked to handle his affairs another state away during the peak of the virus's first summer and left even less time for the powerful energies sweeping through me, desperate to scribble out anything meaningful through either blog or journal.
These extremely intense times have changed us all in strange ways in all the ways. So with this I wanted to relay a very important message for the next few crucial weeks and months ahead:
I own this absence with raw honesty.
Having the unique opportunity to quit my job and focus on putting my BFA to work, I feel a heartfelt vulnerability to give this blog a revival and continue with what it is that I'm meant to do. Write.
Who do I write for?
I write for the inquisitive minds like my own who are posed with questions in their every day existence. I write answers understood by both sides of the brain. Articulate.
In over a year and a half I've decided to get back in for the long ride. During this year and a half, I polished up my website and took a couple free writing courses on LinkedIn and enjoying tips found on the craft of writing to help ensure reader satisfaction in future endeavors.
That's the inside story. Staying inspired takes time to cultivate.
Trust that the content I'm motivated to put out involves a book review of The Inferno on a separate blog I carefully plan to expand on.
I mean, barriers are placed for a reason, right? There apt to be unexpected changes.
As well as setting the scene for putting readers' needs first, I want to heal this relationship between writing and readers by offering a link to a free teaching in hopes of some feedback from people to show I've got their back.
There's a superb potential to deepen the meaningful and open-ended questions that're in need of answering; not only in this real-time pandemic life but in all the ages in remembered consciousness.
There's no guarantee that I'll win back any readers' affections or stunned adoration with the revival of my aspiring projects including flash fiction submissions and updates on any short story publications.
All I can personally do is manifest clear writing results. Content, as the pros call it.
Why do I feel like I'm even better now?
Because of the weird ass experiences I've had since actively blogging - first time in Vegas this year in April, taking my sister to the Black Rock Desert for the Fourth of Juplaya, driving across two states into Montana to visit a dear friend are all possible blog posts recognizably feels like an awakening. Writing about the struggle of tenderness is going to be tentative to furthering my personal connection to a cold, digital world. And in it, I've become quite the digital nomad.
In fact, as clichéd as it reads, it's often frustration that teaches the biggest lessons and foreshadows the most compelling periods of adjustment and improvement.
Career coach Alice Stapleton is clear in her assessment of what it means to hold yourself back through self-defeat. "You'll never try anything new or move forward without failure," she said. As Master Shan-Dao said, "a person's achievement depends on the conditions he or she encounters." Thus, encountering the right conditions is crucial in determining whether we attain results in our cultivation.
Believe in yourself.
