At the heart of every story is Love.
"Find the love," they say. "It'll be fun to seek where it is most sought," they say.
Missing and as misguided as I've been these past few months, this love that folks kept encouraging me to find remained hidden.
My intent is not to return from the abyss with riddles for you to solve. It's just that introversion had hit my most sacred of duties - writing. Let us dare hear what it takes to find wisdom through effort.
- My writing reveals a certain anxiety.
- Evolutionary growth leads to questioning.
- A lack of fulfillment.
The idea where I need social hibernation to understand my deep needs.
- Conflict with the day to day.
- Creative planning lends value to staying consistent.
- Creative confidence.
- Without sustained energy, writing doesn't happen.
Immersing myself in a unique way along this journey has helped in discovering instincts long buried. Lasting personal growth isn't linear. As my spiritual awakening empowers this change, my entire being is becoming actualized.
Illustrating my shift in perceptions left me wrestling with some things. Thinking stuff through left me struggling to define a clear vision. It comes down to priorities.
You may have noticed this, but I'm a die-hard rebel by nature.
Full potential is often overlooked by a person's temperament. Avoidance and disconnect from my own writing led to a mistrust in the qualities that truly make me whole. Painful patterns like depression and questionable choices kept emerging.
My focus doesn't belong squarely upon relation. It belongs in reflection. Somewhere along the way I've clearly misunderstood the approaches I need to take in gaining INSIGHT. The lack of focus, bad habits and distractions are by and large the reasons for this blog post title.
Separation from blogging essentially kept me from the peace which I needed. Loose ends had to be tied up. Authentic power originates from that unconditional love thing I mentioned earlier. The profound sense of value from staying consistent gives me a joy I figured was too difficult to find.
"Go forward with Courage," the Great Trickster tells me.
I have come to realize that inner suppression isn't the same as inner knowing. Getting a grasp on this notion has since directed a passionate understanding of My Sin. I've been preoccupied with "what's missing" for so long. Healing the wounds of separation from my mom's passing last year and being without a mate for over a decade haven't necessarily been a dance around the Maypole, either.
I'm honestly proud of the small commitments recently burned out of my chest. The gratitude I feel is overwhelming sometimes and I hold onto that feeling silently. A personal development in deep meditation practices for the Heart is one of those flaming investments. In order to admire the Heart Drive, I must dig deeper against the thorns and walls surrounding my mysterious beating vessel.
Knowing who you are consciously enough to take action makes a person feel like something more than flesh. This blog helps me to contribute my Coyote given gift of writing in a meaningful and fulfilling way. Sometimes my emotional energies block out what really matters. Responding to life situations with inflexibility kept my essence in lock down. This is My Back and My Sin.
Gypsy Grass
New levels of creativity led to a lasting stability in my recent transformation. I'm considering a blog post about the difference between indie/hipster and bohemian lifestyles or fashion; if there even is one at all. As liberal as these trends are, I've noticed their interconnection within my own rising spiritual maturity.
The other day I found myself in an open space of grass while reflecting on my body's life force and it's reciprocity to the heart and mind. Understanding my instincts and thought processes allowed the embodiment of a single word to form within my chest. -GYPSY-
Somehow I felt more alive and empowered in that present moment. It's taken me years to reach inside myself and feel as confident as I do now. Awareness of this healthy energy chaperoned a furtherance of self love. I've always been a compassionate type of person, but to be fearless is a skill requiring positive patience to manifest.
This year was the most painful I have ever endured.
To become what I Desire, the year of Grief must yield to one of Healing.
I'm grateful for the Love of my sweet Mama.
She's gone on a QUEST to find a new journey, taking everything she's LEARNED along with all her MEMORIES.
The light in my future without her emanates from the Higher Being within myself.
How does one truly reflect what they respect?
To recognize and seize opportunities to become a more well-rounded person.
This is what Gypsy Grass ultimately taught me - find a way to creatively plan with confidence.
THE TURNAROUND
What brings on the next phase?
Deep down I already knew the truth. Experiencing stronger self love makes a soul recognize the inner patterns that drive the outer behavior.
The frequency I find myself vibrating at prepares for forgiveness and a humble satisfaction.
- Are you still a work in progress?
- How will you expand your horizons in the coming weeks?
- How will you cultivate your cosmic connections?
Under this velvety sky, keep watching closely for clues from the Universe on how to stick your own spiritual landing.
It's okay to be slightly on edge if you suddenly find yourself strong enough to fight and clever enough to win.
